Thursday, February 25, 2010

New and Scary Chapter

I started this blog some time ago to be somewhat of a food journal for me, but that did not work out so well. I just stopped posting anything all together. I am still trying to stay active and eat healthy as much as possible. Though a lot has happened in the last year or so that I would like to share a little bit of. Even if no one ever reads this it doesn't really matter, I just have some things that I need to let out.

I have been dealing with infertility for some time now. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost a year. Now, a year or so later, I have been through more than I could have ever imagined. I have been through fertility treatments consisting of pills (which did absolutely nothing) and injections (which was a long but so far successful process). During the middle of December I found out that I was pregnant. I was beyond excited. I went to the doctor to confirm the results that very same day. All was well and in 2 weeks I was to go back and see him. Little did I know that within those two weeks, something happened (or maybe didn't for that matter) that caused me to lose the pregnancy. I would have been 7 weeks. Of course, I was devastated. I felt like I had come so far and been through so much all for nothing. But, I moved on and had to be hopeful that it would happen again.

So I went back to the whole process of injections, ovulation, and waiting two long weeks to see if I could be pregnant again. I must admit that I did not think I would be lucky enough to be pregnant again so soon. When I woke up on the morning of February 11, 2010 I couldn't wait to take the pregnancy test to see if it could be. It was! I was in slight disbelief until I went to the doctor to confirm it with a blood test. At this point, I will try and skip to the end so that this won't go on forever. As of now I am pregnant with quads. That's right quads! How scary and amazing is that. While it is too early to see any heartbeats (I am about 5 ½ wks or so), my doctor informed me that there is a 50% chance that all 4 will develop heartbeats or that 3,2, or 1 will develop. I go back in a week and will hopefully know a little more about what I am working

This is the beginning of a journey that I never thought that I would be on. While I am happy to share it with others, I would just really like a way to recap all that I am feeling and all that is going on throughout this whole process. I will try and update at least each time I go to the doctor, but probably more because I am feeling so many things right now and feel this could be a good way to let them out. So, to anyone who read this long and probably confusing story, thanks for reading and stay tuned for more very soon.