New and Scary Chapter

I started this blog some time ago to be somewhat of a food journal for me, but that did not work out so well. I just stopped posting anything all together. I am still trying to stay active and eat healthy as much as possible. Though a lot has happened in the last year or so that I would like to share a little bit of. Even if no one ever reads this it doesn't really matter, I just have some things that I need to let out.

I have been dealing with infertility for some time now. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost a year. Now, a year or so later, I have been through more than I could have ever imagined. I have been through fertility treatments consisting of pills (which did absolutely nothing) and injections (which was a long but so far successful process). During the middle of December I found out that I was pregnant. I was beyond excited. I went to the doctor to confirm the results that very same day. All was well and in 2 weeks I was to go back and see him. Little did I know that within those two weeks, something happened (or maybe didn't for that matter) that caused me to lose the pregnancy. I would have been 7 weeks. Of course, I was devastated. I felt like I had come so far and been through so much all for nothing. But, I moved on and had to be hopeful that it would happen again.

So I went back to the whole process of injections, ovulation, and waiting two long weeks to see if I could be pregnant again. I must admit that I did not think I would be lucky enough to be pregnant again so soon. When I woke up on the morning of February 11, 2010 I couldn't wait to take the pregnancy test to see if it could be. It was! I was in slight disbelief until I went to the doctor to confirm it with a blood test. At this point, I will try and skip to the end so that this won't go on forever. As of now I am pregnant with quads. That's right quads! How scary and amazing is that. While it is too early to see any heartbeats (I am about 5 ½ wks or so), my doctor informed me that there is a 50% chance that all 4 will develop heartbeats or that 3,2, or 1 will develop. I go back in a week and will hopefully know a little more about what I am working with...lol

This is the beginning of a journey that I never thought that I would be on. While I am happy to share it with others, I would just really like a way to recap all that I am feeling and all that is going on throughout this whole process. I will try and update at least each time I go to the doctor, but probably more because I am feeling so many things right now and feel this could be a good way to let them out. So, to anyone who read this long and probably confusing story, thanks for reading and stay tuned for more very soon.

Thanks Bloggers!!

I tried the whole blogging thing and obviously it just doesn't work for me. Although, I do absolutely enjoy following other people's blogs. I love reading about what other people eat each day because it gives me tons of ideas of new things to try. When I read a blog by someone who is trying to either gain or lose weight it reminds me that no one if perfect and we all have struggles. I do need to be reminded of that quite frequently. I may post every now and again with certain thoughts, but I think that it is way more beneficial to me to just to follow other people's blog and continue to learn new things.

I really just wanted to let the fellow bloggers out there know that while you may be doing this (blogging) to help yourself, you are also helping out people who face the same struggles as you. You are helping them to see that there is a way to live both healthy and happy.

So sometimes I forget

Let's start with lunch yesterday. I had a turkey sandwich on an Arnolds's Wheat Sandwich Thin with broccoli and pretzel sticks.
And I just realized that I also had a Weight Watchers peanut butter cookie that I did not take a pic of. For my afternoon snack, I had a Luna Cookie (it was so GOOD!). I also had grapes, but yet again forgot to take a pic. I always forget about taking the picture until I am almost done eating......lol.
I had salmon with veggies for supper. It was such a delicious and filling supper. I think I might have it more often.

My night time snack, which I had been looking forward to all day, was Dannon Light & Fit Vanilla yogurt with 1/2 serving of Kashi Honey Sunshine. I had never actually tried the vanilla flavored yogurt and was I little nervous as to whether I would like it or not. Luckily, it was just as delicious as the other flavors I have tried. I think that mixing cereal with yogurt is my new favorite thing. I could eat it everyday!

For breakfast today I had Quaker Instant Weight Control Maple & Brown Sugar Oatmeal with 1/2c sliced strawberries. I did eat half a small banana while I was waiting for the oatmeal to be done.

Note to self: Buy a new camera. The one you have does not take clear pictures.

Back on Track

Okay, first we will start with supper last night. I did remember to bring my camera home this time, yay! Anyway, I had a Schwan's LiveSmart Chicken Breast Filet (cut up) and a salad. I guess you could say it was my own version of a grilled chicken salad. Now that I am thinking about it, I think I had a tangelo after the salad. I don't really remember because I didn't take a pic of it.

My night time snack was a 100 Calorie Mini Bag of popcorn and a Dove Dark Chocolate Egg.

And for breakfast this morning, which I was very excited about, I had a big bowl of cereal. It consisted of 3/4 c of Kashi Go Lean, 1/4 c of Fiber One, 1 c of Jumbo Multigrain Krispies, 1/2 c of strawberries, and 2/3 c of Unsweented Vanilla Almond Breeze.

I Will Try Again! Maybe...

I have been leaving my camera at work lately. Not on purpose, I just tend to forget to take it home. So even if I wanted to take pics of my meals I couldn't, but I am taking home today and I am going to try the pics again. I am supposed to be getting a new laptop so I will be able to do my blogging from there. Right now, I am doing it at work which is probably a really bad idea. Anyway, I hope to be back tomorrow with some PICTURES!!

Also, I am determined to NOT let food control my life. I can't believe that I have even let it get to this point. It is really hard for anyone around me to understand what I am going through though. Most people that have my problem are trying to either lose weight or gain some. I am completely content with my weight and I have been at this weight for a year or two now. I just become more and more consumed with thoughts about food and meals and what to eat and when to eat. AHHH! I make myself crazy. Okay enough for today, back tomorrow.

Still Here! Somewhere.

I haven't posted in quite a while. I realized that taking pics of all my meals was actually causing me to become more consumed with eating healthy and planning meals than I was before. I do understand how this helps people though. I am just already ridiculously obsessed with what to eat, when to eat, and how much to eat as it is. It is all I think about. At night, while I am in bed trying to fall asleep, I am actually planning out meals and coming up with new meal ideas. I don't enjoy going eat out because I am not sure of the nutritional info for the food I am eating. I don't know why I have become so consumed by all of this. I just feel like I have worked so hard to get to this point and I don't want anything to set me back. I did make a New Year's resolution to be more relaxed about eating and try my best to enjoy myself more. I don't know how well I have held that up though. I am afraid that it will affect my relationships with other people because I don't really go anywhere or do anything away from home because then I won't know what to eat and when I will be able to eat. How ridiculous is that! Every once in a while the husband and I will go eat and see a movie. I insist that we go to a restaurant that I can look up the nutritional info for and plan what I will eat there. I would just really like to have a more laid back approach to the whole eating healthy thing. I know that this probably sounds completely crazy and even if no one reads it I just feel better getting it out. Just one thing so no one gets the wrong idea. I do eat enough each day. The amount of food I eat has never been a problem for me, my real problem is thinking about it constantly and letting it control my life. Alright enough venting for today.

Maybe I will use this blog as a way to get my feelings out about all this craziness.

Slacker

I haven't really been keeping up with taking pictures lately. I don't really have a good reason though. I just didn't feel like it for a little bit, but I am slowly trying to get back on track. While I didn't remember to take a picture of everything that I had yesterday, I did decide before supper to start getting back on track.

Breakfast (not pictured) yesterday included 3/4 cup of Puffins, 1/2 cup skim milk, 1/4 cup Fiber one and half a sliced banana. I also had a CranBran vitatop.

Lunch (also not pictured) was a Lean Pocket Grilled Chicken Primavera. It was pretty good, but not very big. For dessert, I enjoyed a Weight Watchers Peanut Butter Cookie.

My afternoon snack was a cup of sliced orange (I borrowed the pic from a previous post) and a Dannon Light & Fit Blueberry yogurt (no pic).

Here we go with pictures. For supper I decided to throw a Quorn chicken cutlet in the microwave and top it with salsa. I also had corn. I was planning on having broccoli as well, but I wasn't paying attention when I put in the microwave and it overcooked. For dessert I had a Jell-O sugar free dulce de leche pudding cup with 1/2 cup of strawberries.

My favorite meal of the day (I lie, all my meals are my favorite.....lol), my night time snack consisted of Orville Redenbacher's 100 Calorie Smart Pop popcorn and a piece of Hershey's Extra Dark chocolate with Pomegranate.